Originally published 2/22/18.
Today I will mail a copy of Inner Landscapes to Germany.
As a friend reminded me, “messages in bottles.” Release and allow.
Another way to look at it — sowing seeds in darkness.
The mystery of how and when the seeds take root, send up shoots, and bear fruit is the gift of creation.Julie Ann Stevens
I am aware there is a role for me in supporting the seeds beyond packaging and posting them to their destinations; this is something I trust I will learn more about as I go.
For now I’m focusing on sharing what’s coming up for me in this forum as I work through the process that came through me.
For more than a week, the word “permeable” has been hanging with me. I feel it as a truth. An intrinsic element of all creation. The only way for what is necessary for life and for growth to get in and get out.
Nourished by what passes between us. Open to the flow. Acknowledging the shared air we breathe and water we drink.
What has come to me is how my fear can take the form of a blackout curtain or a super strong password, giving me the consolation of having done what I can to keep something bad from happening — but also weighing me down in hyper vigilance.
I’m not talking about healthy boundaries, but over defended boundaries. I ask for the wisdom to know the subtle difference between the two as I open to this process.
My hope is that my desire to grow as an artist and a human and a vessel of the divine spark will dissolve fear and in Jim Finley’s words, “ground me in the stance of least resistance to that which I am powerless to attain.”
What I can do is get vulnerable in the messy, intimate process of letting go, so that what I am powerless to achieve can grant itself to me in my very powerlessness to achieve itJames Finley